Truth and Fake Questioning

I've recently been reading a from a readers plan on my Bible app on my phone called Dive Deep 14. It is meant to dive deep into the Word of God for 14 days and to help grow closer to Him. The first day was 1 John 1, but the part that stuck out to me is verse 5-10. "This then is the message which we have heard of him, and declare unto you, that God is light, and in him is no darkness at all. If we say that we have fellowship with him, and walk in darkness, we lie, and do not the truth: But if we walk in the light , as he is in the light, we have fellowship one with another, and the blood of Jesus Christ his Son cleanseth us from all sin. If we say that we have no sin, we deceive ourselves, and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. If we say that we have not sinned, we make him a liar and his word is not in us." 

It's actually talking about people who say and think they Christians but don't live the part, or people who say they do no wrong but they are to exact opposite. But to me it kind of opened my eyes a little bit and made me think of the person I want to be. 

I never want to get to the point where I'm just going through the motions. To me, even if you mean well of it, it's fake. I want to me the kind of people that someone can look at and know "This girl is on fire for God, she means business" and I know I say that funny, but that's who I want to be. I never want to be looked at with a question of "Does she really mean this?" I have just been pondering a lot in my mind lately, not that I haven't already made up my mind, but I want my walk to stay fresh, and the questions have been like, "Do I really mean what I say, Is this really who I want to be, Is this the life I choose to live" All answers are yes, but I want to make sure I'm living up to it. I want to be the person God has designed me to be. I was talking to my good friend the other day and we were talking about where we wanted to be and what we feel the future may hold and I told him, "No matter where I am, what I'm doing, I want to be someone people see the truth in...I want to be like people I look up to now, and the rest I want to let God take care of"

That is what has been running for the past couple weeks or so, just to step back and realize your motives. And ask yourself, Real or Fake? This I know has a lot of I's, me's and my's but my point of sharing this is to wake someone else up and spread how I feel to someone else to not just to be someone going through the motions but the know what your doing like mean it.